saturday reflection (behind schedule)

so why not just transformating it into a sunday reflection? - Check! That's how it will work the next time.



Please excuse me for not posting any picture of mine but I'm not feeling like shooting today. I had a night-out yesterday and it was just...terrible. Epic fail. I felt like being totally excluded, as if I had some infectious illness and nobody wanted to come too close to me. Even my best friend didn't pay much attention. Well, I learned to just stay at home next saturday and work on my skilled work, probably better invested time.

I really don't know what's wrong with me these days. No idea. I feel like everything that I worked for so hard all this year, in the end is slipping out of my hands again. My friends, my family,my love, school, work, weight, my MOOD! My f***** positive, idealistic, optimistic, laughing, grinning, hibbely mood I managed to keep all over the summer-days, no matter what happened...it's GONE! I'm waking up with a hammer in my iron-brain and go to sleep with it. I'm working my f***** ass off for school and still I got the feeling I'm never gonna make my final examination. I want to be near my friends, but I'm ignored by them or just kept out. I want to be here for my family but most of the time I sit in my room on the desk. And I love him, I kept thinking about him all day, what more evidence do I need? But...I don't want to burden him with my terrible mood. :(
All I wanted was a static, stable situation in which I could enjoy myself, feel good and love my life. Some sort of caressing order. But all I got is now destructive chaos. At least, I feel like it.







PS: I just realized that I haven't saved any depressed or sad pictures on my laptop...I must have been really happy for quite a long time then.

yours
Rose
HAVE A NICE SUNDAY! don't let yourself be pulled down by my naive, negative thoughts.

flowers for a ghost

all the flowers just reminded me of this: :)

My brain plays the melody of "here comes the sun" on repeat. I must be crazy.

a simple outfit I wore today at school. Also went outside today to catch autumn with my camera. Well, I ended up rather photographing beautiful flowers than fallen leaves. :)

thursday reflection - week 4 (behind schedule)

(May I introduce you to my brother? :) )

Ok, keine Panik! Keeiine Panik! Ich bin hinten dran, ich weiß. Hinten dran sein, heißt aber lange nicht, es vergessen zu haben! :) Das führt mich auch gleich zu meinem ersten Punkt: wir werden aus der thursday reflection kurzerhand eine saturday reflection machen. Schlicht und ergreifend, da am Donnerstag wegen meinem Stundenplan (der bis 5 Uhr abends geht und ich danach noch *thihi* weggehen will) einfach keine Zeit bleibt, irgendetwas zu posten.
Prinzipiell war die erste Woche Schule schon wieder ziemlich stressig. Die ersten Hausaufgaben, diese Seiten im Buch lesen und, ja, wir müssen uns beeilen, wenn ihr schon dabei seit, dann...etc. Ich glaube, die meisten kennen das. Aber naja, ich kann mich nicht wirklich beschweren. Es sind nun mal die letzten 5 Monate, da muss ich jetzt durch. Hoffentlich so gut wie meine Mum durch ihre Diplom-Prüfungen, von denen sie gestern die Ergebnisse erhalten hat: in allen 3 Fächern eine 1,0. WTF?!

Don't panic! Please don't panic! I already know, I'm late. But being late doesn't mean simultaneously to have forgotten it! What leads me easily to my first topic: We have to make out of the thursday reflection a saturday reflection. To cut long stories short: because my school-schedule doesn't allow it anymore on thursdays.
Said in principals, the first week back at school was kind of pretty stressing. The first homeworks, read these pages in the books and, yes, we got to hurry up, so when you're already doing it, then please add those...etc. Well, I think most of you know that procedure. But I can't really complain about it. These are the last 5 months of school for me in my life, I got to go through them. Hopefully as good as my Mum has done in her Diplome-examinations, of which she received her results yesterday. In all 3 subjects: 1,0. (the best mark you can get in Germany.) I mean...WTF?


the weekly 7:





(all CHIEMSEE - bavarian "ocean" :) )








...I really hope so!!

soundtrack of the week:
actually, I had the idea just yesterday during my night-out :D




yours Rose :)

owls for your ears

(Orsay; 3,99€)

Das sind noch die Eulen-Ohrstecker, die ich euch unbedingt zeigen wollte. Mittlerweile trage ich sie eigentlich non-stop und mein Dad ist ein ganz großer Fan von ihnen.

These are the owl-earrings I wanted to show at all costs. Meanwhile I'm wearing them more or less non-stop and my Dad has become a great Fan of them.

back to shoo-shoo-shooo-sugartown...ahm...school!!

So, heute hatte ich noch einen Tag Schonfrist, den ich dazu genutzt habe, mein Zimmer vom Ferien-Staub zu befreien, meine Schultasche aus der Ecke herauszukramen und die Sommersoapschmalz-Romane zur Bücherei zurückzubringen.
Ein wenig melancholisch werde ich schon, wenn ich den Sommer revue passieren lasse. Es war einfach schön! (Und das habe ich schon lang nicht mehr von einem Sommer behaupten können:) ) "Schuld" daran ist meine Beste! Auf ihr Konto gehen die meisten glücklichen, tollen, unvergesslichen Momente. <3 ein besonderes Danke an Dich!

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So, today I had just one day of rest left, which I used to clean off my room from vacation-dust, to dig my school-bag out of the darkest corner and to bring back my summersoaplardy-literature to the library.
I get a bit melancolic if I imaginary let pass the summer before my eyes. It was just a great time! (And this I couldn't say of a summer for a long time!)responsible for that is my best! most credits of the nice, wonderful and unforgettable moments go to her!
A great thank you to you!

thursday reflection - week 3

Ja, ja...langsam nimmt alles wieder seine gewohnten Bahnen. Am Dienstag, nach meinem Geburstag, haben wir unser neues Auto nach Hause geholt, einen ganz neuen schwarzen BMW aus der 3er-Reihe und heute hat meine Mum zum Ersten Mal nach ihrem schlimmen Unfall im Juli wieder gearbeitet.
Vormittags sind jetzt alle aus dem Haus, bis auf mich. Ich bin allein und lerne, sehe aber keine Ergebnisse. An meiner Facharbeit habe ich seit einer Woche nichts mehr geschrieben, nur darüber gelesen, endlose Textpassagen mit Leuchtmarker unterstrichen und an meinem Referat gearbeitet. Zumindest dort geht es ein wenig voran. Das Hand-Out steht im Grundkonzept. Nur noch ein wenig verfeinern, aber das werde ich sehen, sobald die PowerPoint-Präsentation Gestalt annimmt.
Ansonsten habe ich Angst...Angst vor dem Alt-werden, allein Alt-werden, komisch werden, Falten kriegen, im Abitur versagen, vorm Leben versauen... nein, ich bin nicht wirklich in einer super-Stimmung!

Well, slowly everything gets back into it's habituated rounds and bounds. On tuesday, right after my birthday, we fetched our new car, a new black BMW out of the 3-family and it is just today, that my Mum had her first day at work after her bad accident back in July.
In this way I'm alone the forenoon, nobody's at home, except me. I spend my time on learning but can't make out any progress, actually. That's pretty depressing! It's now a week, that I've written the last time something for my skilled work. Since then I just read specialist literature and kept on highlighting important text passegges. Furthermore I'm working on my report for Biology. At least there I kinda make some progress. The main-concept of the hand-out is ready, I just have to go through it and refine it...hopefully I will, when the powerpoint presentation is set.
Apart from that...I'm scared. I'm scared of getting old, getting old alone, become strange, getting wrinkles, faiing my school leaving examination, messing up my live...
no...I'm pretty not in a good mood!

I thought instead of presenting you some collected pictures, my own photographs that tend to accumulate on my camera now and then:















soundtrack of the week:




yours Rose